Dan Ennis

until he turned forty-three years of age. At this time he was
forced to undergo surgery. It was in the recovery room after
this operation that the radiant light-energy he had stuffed down
for all those years and covered with hurt and anger finally
managed to surface. It dug its way out of the solid dark,
polluted mass of anger, fear, hate, resentment, rage, ego,
bitterness, helplessness, hopelessness and loneliness—all that
toxic garbage that had accumulated through the years. The
light surfaced to pay him a visit. It came in the form of a
miniature image of himself.

This tiny image came out while the man slipped in and
out of consciousness after the surgery. The tiny person came
out of his left eye and looked around. This small person did
not like what he saw and immediately went back inside
through the same place where he had earlier emerged. Later
that same day, the man got very nauseous. He called for a
nurse and asked for a bed pan. In a short time, he began to
vomit. He vomited for a long time; it felt like hours. Then, he
noticed that the vomit was black in colour, shiny and almost
solid in density. There appeared to be gallons of it!

Unfortunately, the man did not immediately recognize
that the black vomit represented his negative, hate-filled and
fear-filled life. He did not connect with that other self. He was
only glad to put the fearful experience behind him.

The man did not recognize that his thirty years of
wandering in the wilderness of white civilization had left him
feeling lost, confused and fearful. It had taken away his
identity and he no longer knew who he was. He did not
recognize that most of his health problems, drinking problems,
marriage problems, parenting problems, and spiritual
problems, all stemmed from this loss of light-energy and his
connectedness to Earth Mother and all her creatures. For thirty
years he had been trying to make himself into something he
could never become: a white person. He did not recognize
what his tiny visitor and all that black vomit were trying to
show him. He could not understand that he was being urged to

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